In the Beginning.....

This is the start of something new, something great. This is the start of me. 
After one of the longest and most difficult past few months of my life, I have started to finally feel peace and new found sense of self. What happened to me is something that for now, I cannot put into words, but maybe someday I can get it out on paper (or blog) but for now it is just another etching, another constellation of my heart. 

I know it is not the new year yet, but I have already set some goals and dreams for myself. 

The first of which is this blog. I have always loved writing, it brings out pieces of my soul and puts them into words. It also brings about a sense of peace, almost like therapy. I would love to someday write a book and hopefully this will help me towards that dream. 

I have also once again, started working out and trying to be healthier. I have a goal to lose 25 pounds and become fit and healthy again. When I was younger I was so into being fit and active and it felt great! I want to feel that way again. To have confidence again and be happy. This is for me. Not to look good for someone else or to be societies version of attractive but to be happy with what I see in the mirror every morning. This is what I want to achieve. When I reach that goal I will be getting myself a tattoo in gold and white ink. I am grateful to Pinterest for the design ideas haha :)

Lastly, I am focused on just learning to find joy in every day. To find something positive, even if it is just something small and insignificant. By finding these bits and pieces of happiness I hope to build an internal constellation of confidence that will flow throughout my soul and glow on the outside. 

This is the new start of me. This is my now. 

And here is a beautiful new song I just heard a few days ago and can't stop thinking about. 

Say Something...

 "Say Something" A Great Big World & Christina Aguilera